my other side

either in a good mood nor bad mood…

Written on September 27, 2005 – 4:34 am | by ruzell-masiglat

as of this moment i am cool and i am not hot temper or in a bad mood. obviusly am in the mood to write my opinion and my observation.i can’t help but i just like to ask this questions. Yes! you read me right questions with S more than one. okey let me start with this… have you ever felt that you want to shout and yell (as if there is no tomorrow) because of anger? but you cannot do it because you have to keep your temper down and cool. have you ever felt like you dont want to care anymore of what other people’s opinion? and in the first place why do we care so much of what other people’s going to say or think? why are there a lot of people who are hypocrite? why do we have to pretend we are fine when the truth is we are not? why do we  have to show we are nice when it is not what you feel inside? why do people say it is okey when it is not? why do people say that they understand even though they don’t? wonder why i am asking? because lately i’ve been in a situation when i felt like a volcano that ready to erupt anytime without warning because of the anger. but still i have to showed to the people around me my trade mark of  "smiling face". haven’t they notice that i am in a bad mood? have i lost my right to feel angry? i like to speak in a high tone of my voice but still i had to think or feel other people’s feelings if i do it. why can it be, that’s how i feel so deal with! i know i had to respect the feelings of the other people around me but how about me? sometimes i felt like i always understand them but they never understood me. i felt like no one listen to what i said and no one bother to ask if i am okey or if i still alive. i don’t know i just feel like it from time to time. sana pwede yung pag galit ka galit ka period no question ask. or if your happy happy ka lang. or in the other hand pag gusto mo umiyak edi umiyak ka. yung free ka sa kahit anong gawin mo yun you dont have to think you just felt like doing it. i dont know sometimes i felt like i just want to run i dont know where to go but i just like to do it. maybe my mind is preoccuppied of a lot of things problem happiness future love family work career dreams like and a lot more.i just like to share my insanity and my incapacity of understanding myself. i just like to be free from everything even just for one day. can it be possible? i hope so..